- Rice milk
- 1 cup of spinach
- 1 1/2 cup of kale
- 1 cup of fresh basil
- 1 banana
- 1 tbsp matcha green tea powder
- 1 scoop of organic plant protein in vanilla
- 1 tsp chia seeds
- topped with chia seeds and basil
I came across this post on my Fb feed: 5 things Hispanics born in America want you to know, and it brought up memories, anxieties, and annoyances.
For years during my childhood/adolescence, I commuted from the U.S. to MX on a daily basis. Since I was already in grade school, I was immersed in and very much influenced by U.S. culture. My native language (Spanish) became elementary at best, and I was picked on in MX for my grammatical errors, pronunciation of words, and lack of understanding the language. Because of this experience and the U.S. attitude to embrace being “white washed” for better status, I experienced a long-term trauma leading me to abandon the language altogether. Even though I was clearly an outsider in my MX life, however, I maintained a sense of identity in both countries.
It wasn’t until I moved away from my border hometown, and into a bigger city, that I suffered an identity crisis and a sense of truly not belonging. I was constantly asked where I was from and “originally” from. I thought it peculiar that many people rejected Texas as my initial answer and would instead pry with more questions regarding my background until I surrendered an answer that made sense to them—anything but the U.S. This series of questions was most often followed with an inquiry into my native language and whether I could teach this non-Hispanic stranger a word or two of it. Or, if the stranger was Hispanic, they would shame me for not speaking Spanish fluently. I felt alienated and confused. Suddenly my cross-cultured experience as an American-born Hispanic of a border town didn’t make sense to me.
I stayed confused for a few years . I wavered between denying my cultural roots and desperately trying to fit in as “very” Latina. Both failed. I didn’t understand why it felt difficult to fit in.
What I neglected to realize is that I hold the privilege of access to education. Once realized, I set out to do what I thought I would never do–take courses and self-study my own culture. In my studies, I have become informed about social and political issues that directly (and indirectly) affect me as a person in this society. I am able to understand the dynamics and attitudes in society that influence social behavior and thus social construction. I have now developed an enthusiasm for exposing others to social issues and, with the guidance from my mentors, I have gained tools to make small movements of change. It is with this awareness that I have finally let go of a lot of anxiety and internalized shame for my identity.
Like the author of the post above, I too wish more people were conscious of just how complicated and confusing it is to be a first, second (and so on) generation U.S. born Hispanic. My advice to the curious is to approach questions regarding ancestry and citizenship with sensitivity. Or else prepare for a ridiculous answer, like my go-to answer now: “I’m from Earth.”
Colorado, you sure are beautiful.
Great Sand Dunes was my favorite pit stop during the trifecta’s (Me, Jeremy, Dexter) three week road trip. The scenery was just surreal. I felt as if I had been transported to another planet–perhaps Dexter’s homeland?
Sadly we were in a rush to get to Boulder for an event so we were only able to enjoy a picnic at the Dunes.
In all the years I’ve lived in LA, I have only been to Burbank a handful of times. Seeing as I love to change things up (maybe too often?), I was totally up for meeting a friend for yoga in the far away land that is Burbank. Eryn swears by her second-home studio so I made the voyage with confidence, twice.
When your produce is on the verge of spoiling, dump it in a blender! I would like to refer to this as a happy bowel movin’ smoothie. o__o But really…
- Coconut milk
- Handful blueberries
- Handful spinach
- Handful kale
- Handful mint leaves
- 1 tbsp matcha green tea powder
- 2 tbsp chlorophyll
- 1 tbsp eucalyptus honey
- Topped with chia seeds